Its Been Awhile

Wow, Almost a year since my last post. Again I am amazed by how much has changed.

Sean and I have had quite the roller coaster of a year. We are still very involved with Disciples Church and are amazed by God's provision and faithfulness. I am now a Behavior Consultant and I absolutely love my job and feel legit that I have a career.

In June Sean was in a pretty bad road bike accident and I was diagnosed with anxiety. For two months I thought I was dying and didn't know what was happening. I wasn't sleeping or eating, I had trouble with social interactions, and I was in a great deal of physical pain. I went to the ER twice because of panic attacks before I realized what it was. Its horrible. Their are no words to describe the horrible, nagging, constant sense of doom and the panic attacks literally make me feel like I am dying. I had chest pain, felt like I was choking, stomach problems, headaches, heart palpitations, tingling, muscle spasms and muscle pain. But God is teaching me so much through all of this. I am learning to rely and trust in him like never before. I have come a long way over the last six months thanks to tranquilizers, anti-depressants, therapy, and mostly God. It is still a daily struggle but when I think back to June I feel like a different person. I am worrying less. although I still think I am dying pretty frequently.

In August Sean got a new job. He really enjoys it. He no longer has to wake up at 3am which makes me happy. We went to his work christmas party last night. I met everyone and had a very good time.

In September I was rear-ended on my way to work. My car was totaled and I had whip-lash, soft tissue damage, and my pelvis shifted. I am almost done with my rehabilitation. My neck hurts every once in awhile but otherwise I feel back to normal.

In October I was promoted to consultant. I got a raise and a lot more responsibility and am amazed at how much I love my job.

This week Sean's step mom passed away. I feel bad for his dad. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose my spouse.

Like I said, roller coaster.

I am excited for the upcoming year. A new year seems like a fresh start.

Life Changes

I just read my first post from April and its funny how much has changed in the last 9-10 months. We have moved twice, Sean got a new job, I graduated from college, Disciples church moved from an in home church to meeting at Stage 9 to now meeting at Theodore Judah Elementary, and I got a new job and a new plan for the future. I didn't think I could ever love a job like I love this one. I love working with autistic children!!! I plan on making this my career and I am so excited about it. Currently I am looking into getting my ABA certificate then will work on getting my Masters.

I am so thankful for my new job. I was literally dreading becoming a teacher but still felt called to work with children. I couldn't stop thinking about it and finally in November decided to look at my other options. And here I am now :). I still work at the Lobster which makes me very busy and tired on the weekends but I get to quit in five months. Besides the tiredness I am happier than I have been in a while and am looking forward to the things God has for me in the near future.