Ugh

I'm sad.

I've been crying for at least an hour now.

It's hard to explain why I'm upset. I'm sure it's my fault.

I want to be happy but I'm having a hard time. I am having a hard time being myself. I have anxiety. I am smart. I love Jesus. I love my husband. I'm tired of faking it.

I'm over life decisions

Seriously, if I didnt have to make another life changing decision I would be a happy girl. But then I guess it wouldn't really be life.

Ugh.

Awake

I suck at sleeping, especially if I'm not I'm my own bed.

Yesterday was my Grandma's funeral. It was nice. I was anxious all day. I'm guessing it was caused by the large amount of family I would have to interact with. And of course it turned out that there was definitely family drama. Ugh

So now I'm awake, fighting off a panic attack. I miss my Seany, Lola and my comfy bed.

Psalm 91 is my comfort